Hmm...seems like I'm finally back to blogging after a month-long siesta*zzzz* and man what a weird time to start blogging again!Any inspirations?Definitely...you know who and why and what and how and bla bla bla...
Life in VJ is damn fun,as compared to the the previous JC I was in(not that I hated it there,but life here is generally more fun?),especially with all the trainings for cross country and track!Whoo!Running rocks my life and invigorates me to no end...even better than what some say,sex(not that I have tried it before,but oh well...).And of course the OTHER factor that really impacts me greatly...argh!It(or rather,they) can either bring me to cloud 9 or dump me in the lowest stage of hell*shudders* and leads me to the distinct dichotomy of "good day" and as Daniel Powter croons,"had a BAD DAY..."
Ah,but all these "funness" come with a price-I'm so lagging in my studies I don't seem to know myself anymore!Whatever happened to the always motivated and super-mugger me who cared about nothing but burying my overloaded brain into towering mountains of books?Whatever happened to the 5-hour study days?It's so scary what the OTHER factor is doing to me-wasting time just stoning and people-watching and hoping futilely for things that usually don't happen(BAD DAYS).*sighs* guess I really have to pull up my socks when the time comes,but do I have the mindset to do that?*bites her lip*
Enough about the epiphany of my idiosyncrasies...Today was on the whole a bad day,with only a few good stuff littered here and there(but it's not much enough to make it a good day).Had a damn "shuang" PE where I ran(you guessed it) and then I had plenty of time to bike,very grateful for Dehvy's warm presence and company and of course Faith's constant time spent with me later on!Thank you gals,big hugz!And that was when...oh man the good thing I mentioned happened.It was there and it seems like it and the chance was just screaming and screaming but of course I missed it(life's like that yeah?)and had to feel completely crushed after that.Ughx.I hate feeling depressed(well,who does?)Damn,I should have done something,but I don't want to appaer too freaky and too despo(you know waht I mean...it's just not right).The rest of the day was dull dull dull with farking econs lecture and a sleepy geog tutorial...It's scary how much my attitude towards lessons have changed!Eeeks!I'm so freaked out by myself.Guess I'm just this super-emo,super depressed gal with dreams too big for her to handle and a self-confidence so low it makes a snake's armpit jealous(wait a minute...is it me or does this sound a LITTLE bit random?lol)
Guess I have to take my anti-depressants now,in the form of a long long run*smiles* to banish all those worrying demons consuming my soul and my once-cheerful deposition...I have to stay happy or I may die from sadness!Come on gal,present your biggest smile and try to stay happy!Life can be beautiful!(yeah right,so much for trying to sound optimistic...*sighs*)
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