Let it be over...

I'm just so tired and sick of all those recurring thoughts...ugh!I want them to vanish forever,so that I won't have to think anymore...My brain feels so drained,like totally sick with the same old thoughts over and over and over(and it goes on...) again...argh...it's mental torture,or rather self-induced psychological mutiliation(what the hell?!).Sometimes I wonder,what am I doing all these for?What's the point?And what's the opprtunity costs(oh man...let's not go to THAT...)?Enough is enough...everyone has limits and damn,I'm fast reaching my [famously-reputed] highly tolerant limits...It's going to be over soon...*crosses her fingers*

Ugh,I hope sincerely that training can be tougher.Call me nuts,crazy,weird,whatever is deemed appropriate,but seriously I miss all those tough trainings that can really take my mind off all these crap.I need that great big dose of anti-depressants!I want to tire myself to breaking point and feel the pain..oh the sweeeeet pain coursing throughout my body(the sadist emerges in times of real depression*grins*).Sometimes its really good to feel some pain-it makes you focus on something thus numbing the other pain that comes from the other crappy shit.

What of the lad who never wins,but never quits the race?
Who knows before the day begins,he's doomed to second place.
Two left feet; too many thumbsbut still he plods ahead.
He'll arrive to catch the crumbs,after the winners have been fed.
Who is this lad of average skills,who's most of the human race?
One by one he'll climb life's hills,just trying to keep life's pace.

Just something for all the crossers/trackers...ALL THE WAY!I hope the fighting spirit of that lad inspires you guys to work hard and not to give up at this most crucial training period.Other CCAs may be done with all their trainings and are happily enjoying various games...but PERSEVERE guys!Let your passion for running and your very strong(built up from all the long-runs,haha) mental strength carry you forward!Jia you my fellow friends!

Ps. Get well soon Sarah!I miss you!The PE dept was so empty today without your chirpy chatter!Hope your ankle is better after that bad slip,and your fever subsides!Take care my dear friend :)