I can't stay awake!

These days I have been feeling increasingly exasperated at myself,simply because I cannot find the strength-both to stay awake and also to fight the irresistable temptations to "pon" lessons. The first 15 minutes into lectures and tutorials are perfectly fine,still able to absorb some trivial information,but the struggle comes after the first 15mins,when the drier yet more important info starts coming,and by then I have already shut-off,letting the drowsiness take over me in its lazy grasps. *sighs*

And then there is the "pon" demon which my poor conscience can't seem to defeat. Especially for my twice per week(yes yes,ONLY twice) Maths tutorial...Poor Mrs Ang! She's so nice,and precisely because of that,I'm feeling like shit now that I have "ponned" her lessons twice already,just to catch up on my sleep. But at that time it was impossible to turn down Jon Heng's offer to skip Maths because I was near-dead after an hour of GP,and was in no mood nor had any mental capacity to handle another hour of integration with the GC that hates me so much. *shakes her head* And the weather! It was so cold,the perfect temperature to curl up with a snuggy jacket at the stone tables and sleep my life away. Argh...excuses excuses! I better buck up,stop skipping lessons,concentrate during lessons-provided I don't fall asleep before that,and start doing my tutorials and readings before it's too late. I don't wish to screw any subjects during promos,which means no 'S's,so as to avoid taking the dreaded,holiday/training-consuming R paper. Or even worse,retain!

*takes a deep breath* ok ok ok...time to be really serious about academics now,much as I hate it! Goal of the year: Don't "kena" retained,nor "kena" any R papers...That's all.