Broken dreams

What do you do when the world crashes around you-just from hearing the bad news you have sort of expected but still dreaded to hear? Nothing. You just have to stick it out and move on with life. Killing yourself would be too stupid a thing,because,hey,life is worth more than just that,and it's not worth it somehow. No way. Moping around and suffering from major emo drawbacks would be the most viable option I guess. Sit around with a huge moon face and think think think,sometimes consuming yourself and others around you in those killing thoughts of yours,or just being listless and spaced out in every daily activity,again with your mind and heart working overtime to cope with the major emotional bomb. Ah,such things do happen to everyone at some point of their life,no matter how super-uber happy they may appear. So,it's not just you.

Today's the first day I started running since that bad,embarrassing fall of mine,and man,it felt good. Hours after hours spent on the dull elliptical machine has nearly made me as gray as itself,and being able to run outdoors in the cooling breeze is really a fresh awakening.

The wound's starting to itch,oh-so-unbearably,and I long to scratch scratch scratch it all off. Ah,but that would have been disastrous and I probably would have to spend another week limping around on my blood-leaking leg,and stay off from hockey practices,which I so badly need now,before the game on the 5th. Some of the scabs have peeled themselves off though,and I can see the raw pink skin underneath,cute! They look so innocent and fresh,totally uncorrupted by and unexposed to the dirt of the outside world,awww...But the urge to peel scabs is so great! The feeling is damn shuang,and I already got a queue of people wanting to help me do it: Sarah,Li Yin,my brother...Sorry people,the honours goes to myself,for enduring the pain of the injuries!

The pain that you feel,
but can't touch.
A pain you know of,
but can't explain.
A pain so fierce,
you go insane.
The unknown pain
that clutches your heart
and burns in your soul.
The pain in your life,
too strong to carry on.
The unknown pain
that clouds your mind
and devours your every thought.
The pain of broken promises and broken dreams,
is a pain that's unheard of
and a pain that's not seen.