Too much time...!

Before promos,it's like everyone's rushing about and busying themselves with imprinting the entire contents of their notes into their minds,and they were simply too occupied to do anything else. And that's when all the to-do lists after promos come out,like "I'm gonna do this and I'm gonna do that," and we would all sit around and imagine how good it would be if we can just stop our mindless cramming and do what we want to do so badly. Yet,now that promos are over,it seems we have too much time on our hands that we complain of nothing to do. As in,we are seriously a bunch of bored people who take joy in nothing but sleeping and thrashy gossips about everything ranging from perfumes to eccentric characters like Mr Harris and Mr Cook. And it doesn't help that almost all our teachers constantly cancel our tutorials! How ironic of me! If they had done that just a few months ago,I would have been crazy with glee,but now I'm like,"What the fuck...? More time to do nothing again?" Ugh,reaching a state of ennui...Spent nearly four hours stoning at the stone tables(how apt!) and watching the rest of the happy world pass by to their tutorials and lectures,sometimes listening to MP3 at full volume till my eardrums start ringing,sometimes spacing out at the piano while Faith and Eunice tinkle happily on the keys,sometimes sleeping rather fitfully on the stone-hard(well duh! It won't be the stone tables for nothing...) chairs in an uber uncomfortable position and getting painfully roused by certain cries and wails...It must have been the most boring time of my life! What exactly did I come to school for? 15 mins of Econs lecture,just to collect my paper and of course,training. But otherwise...sigh,forget it.


How "suay" we were today! Always the first to kena sai kang...Faith,Eunice and I happen to walk out to 7-11 for a much needed boredom-breaking breather when we got stopped by the security guard to "do a favour". And guess what it turned out to be? Taking down the huge open house banner just outside the gate,with the brick-heavy poles and all. The strings were so securely tied,the banner was somehow nailed to the poles,the wood shoved splinters into our hands,the sun was beating down hard on us,the whole thing was infested with red ants,weird bugsy,fragmenting cocoons and surprise surprise!-a lizard that ran all over my arms leaving behind a soft,squooshy feeling. *shakes her head* And amidst all that shit,that damned guard just sat on his heavy bottom,with his legs splayed out,on his huge comfy chair under the shade,and-best of all-combing(yes,COMBING. don't ask me why) his eggshell-smooth BALD head! Infuriating sight,I must say. We poor girls doing a job which Jancy asked him to do! But sigh,what the hell,let's just say,we did someone a favour today,and that should be rewarding enough.

Time is really running out! It sucks to see the days slip by and knowing what awaits at the end. *splinters and fragments* It's like,there's so much I want to do,but there is just no opportunity anywhere and anytime,and it's just so ARGHHHH to sit and watch time tick on without being able to do anything. Why oh why? It's just so cruel man...and this is like one of the worst feelings to have!

The pain that you feel,
but can't touch-
a pain you know of,
but can't explain.
A pain so fierce,
you go insane.
The unknown pain
that clutches your heart and burns in your soul.
The pain in your life,
too strong to carry on.
The unknown pain
that clouds your mind
and devours your every thought.
Oh the pain of broken promises,broken dreams
the pain that's unheard of
the pain that's not seen...