Epiphanies are meant to be sudden "wake-up calls" that can occur at any time of your life,at the most unexpected places,under the most unthinkable situations. Sometimes they are just sudden clicks in your mind,other times they come in the form of the words of others,which I strongly believe is God working through them to get His message across to me. Epiphanies make you realise things you never thought of before,and stop you in doing whatever you're doing,then make you change your life in the most,well,ironic way. Let's just say,an epiphany struck me today,while talking to certain trusted friends over a certain bugging matter,and it just made me realise how off-track I've been,and how important it is to really focus on what's the main priorities.
It just set me thinking deeply,and though this epiphany left me with this tingling,clouding sense of pain,or what I call "shittiness",I understood that it has to happen,and am glad that it did,before things got deeper and more complicated. I have to admit,my whole training was totally screwed up,and my mood was as black as night. I've really put myself into such a f***ed-up situation,and totally just ruined myself with all these inflictions. Just by thinking too much. Wow.
Sarah pounded on me to "focus,and you can do anything" and man,it's high time I start focusing! God,studies(gosh,I'm year 2 already!),cross-country,hockey...there's so many things to "channel my energy to",as Viv puts it,and that I don't always have to rely on THAT. S**t man,I mean,I can't lose something that I didn't even have in the first place! What the hell is wrong with me?!
Sweet Lord Jesus,stay with me now,for I seek desperately for Your comfort. I will grow strongest when I'm at my weakest,for You fill me with Your limitless strength...
