Stay, please

Do you have more time? I plead...please stay on earth longer. I don't want you to go yet. It's too early. You're too young. It's not fair. I can't let you go. Please stay longer.

Memories...good for recollection. I shall keep them locked up in my secret treasure chest and open them only when I'm ready to face the future and not let the past come back and haunt me. But for now, I put them aside, afraid that anything vaguely reminding me of you will break the flood gates and leave me so broken, crying till my insides hurt.

Just a bit more time, please. Let me say all that I want to say to you. Please.

How much hurt can one take?

Wow. Didn't they say life is supposed to be full of ups and downs? How come it's only downs for me?

How much further down can I go?

I never knew I could hurt so much. I never knew a heart can be broken so badly. I never knew things can change so badly, so fast.

Guess I didn't know a lot of things. And I have to learn them now. The hard way.

God help me.

What is going on?

There are things which we never understand.

I just wish I could have God's omniscience and omnipotence. To know everything and do everything.

I wish people will not give up so easily. I wish the love people have for each other is as strong as the love God has for us.

I wish I can sleep tonight.