memory

You walked in to my life,
But just like that,
You walked back out,
Still you will be a memory-
A memory that I have created in my mind.

Still you will be a memory,
A memory that will always be locked,
Away in my heart and my mind,
I will always have a memory of you in my heart,
And I will always carry that picture of you in my mind.

Still you will be a memory.

Im running out...

Im running out things to say
[im running out of lies]

Im running out trust
[im running out of spies]

Im running out of love
[im running out of hopes]

Im running out of dreams
[im running out of silent screams]

Im starting to get tired of running toward you
so I guess Ill just start running away...

Maybe dreams cannot come through

Maybe dreams cannot come true,
but they are mountains
that give shape to the horizon,
reference points to guide us on the way
towards lands long promised us in distant Zion.

If we never get that far,
we'll be nearer for the journey we have taken,
letting the next generation see
up close the dreams they else might have forsaken.

The dreamer lives a bit beyond what is,
having had the courage to say no,
existing in a future wholly his,
revealing through his grace
where we must go.

Knowing well this world of lust and greed
in which the dream but rarely marks the deed,
none could bear to dream but for the soul
great enough to bear it for the whole.

Anger and me

Anger is a form of fear
Anger is what I’m waiting to hear
Anger is deep down inside me
Anger drives me crazy
Anger is what turns me on
Anger is what turns me off
Anger is my enemy
Anger is my pal
Anger is gonna kill me
Anger is gonna save me
Anger might just help me
Find my true identity.....................
..................Maybe?

Hate

I hate those who hate,
I hate myself for not knowing what to hate,
I hate life,
I hate love,
I hate not knowing of my upcoming strife
I hate not know of my oncoming love.

I hate those who hate,
I hate myself.
I'd stop to hate for gold of my weight,
I hate all those with excessive wealth,
I hate those who harm,
I hate those who hurt.
I hate those who use their charm,
to put others in the dirt.
I hate living as I ache,
I hate living in earth wake.

I hate people who hate,
I being the one who must be to forsake.
Those who hate,
must hate me
Because of thou hate I hate thee,
The point I must make,
Leaving myself without this weight:
is that I love to hate!
And all love hate
when you hate what they hate.

so alone

So alone in my bed
Alone listening to nightly whispers
Alone in my thoughts
Alone standing in court

Alone I stand and fight
Alone I pray for rainbow lights
Alone in the morning I awake
Alone I celebrate my joys

Alone I cry out my sadness
Alone I voice out my fears
Alone in strength
Alone in wealth
Alone in good health

Alone I try to understand
Alone I seek knowledge
Alone I share what is mine
Alone I try not to be alone
Alone when my time has come, I pass away
- Sylvia Chidi

Crazy

A shadow with me all day
No body
This is crazy, this is crazy

Notes of a scintillating flute
No flutist
This is crazy, this is crazy
Breathtaking verse on paper
I was sleeping
This is crazy, this is crazy

Vermilion laden sky
Sunrise or sunset?
This is crazy, this is crazy

Dishevelled clothes, swollen lips
You came in my dream
I am crazy, I am crazy

Or is this the only sanity?